What Is Your Apple?

 What Is Your Apple?

What is your Apple?  It's an illusive answer.  You think you have it and then you're like, nah that can't be it.  It's as cunning as a snake, appropriately enough.  There are so many things available to us in this world that have become an entitlement to us.  Technology is a sneaky one.  Is it progress or problematic?  My apple is a lot like Adam and Eve’s.  It's the knowledge of good and evil.  It's "the news."  For some reason I am enamored with world news.  I just have this need to know.  A vast majority of the stories that you see on the news are negative reports.  They really make me want to grab the remote, but I can't.  I get sucked into documentaries too about other people’s stories.  Many of them are tragic and without much hope in the end.  

Do you ever feel like you know too much?  Like you've seen more than you wish you had?  There was a young woman who was shot in a crossfire during a conflict in Iran after the last election.  I was listening to news talk radio in my car, as I often do, and they were saying that this young woman was the face of that conflict.  There was a YouTube recording of the incident, coverage of her father holding her as she bled out in the street.  What do you think I did as soon as I got home?  I pulled up that clip and I watched.  One minute, I had never watched a person die, and the next, I wished that I never had.  It haunted me and began to make me question why I had needed to see that.  There are so few pieces of innocence left in my heart and in an instant I lost another.  I wanted it back, I still do.  

The news makes me want to hide like Adam and Eve did once they saw.  I want to curl up in the fetal position like I've never become a man.  Like I have never seen a miracle or felt the presence of God.  I look at my laptop and there is a big bite taken out of that apple on the cover.  What's your Apple?